Back to BLOGGING!!!

I haven't written on my blog for a long time and decided it was about time to get back into blogging again!

My life these last couple of years have not been easy ones by any means i have had extreme highs and extreme lows. There were countless times when i thought i wasn't going to make it through the day...but i did and hear i am!! This last year by far has been the hardest with Aaron and i separating and the troubles that we were having in our marriage before we separated. Looking back i surprise myself at all the things that i have dealt with..i've probably dealt with more issues the last 4 years than most people ever will in their lifetime...as hard as these obstacles have been i am grateful for them. They have helped me to grow as a woman, a mother, spiritually, mentally, just in so many different ways. I want my life to be an example of 1-what not to do...i have a tendency to do all those things. 2- to help people who do go through hard times, help them to realize that they do have inner strength and that we can get through these times and thrive.

Choosing to get back together with Aaron was one of the hardest choices i've made. I know to some it looked like i just jumped right back into it without thinking at all. That is not the case it is something i debated and prayed and pondered and searched answers for. There were so many times where i was on my knees praying for almost 2 hours trying to find out what i was to do. I went back and forth on what to do so many times i had myself so confused. Then one day out of the blue..i think i was washing dishes and i just knew what my answer was. I am grateful i made the decision that i made. I have never regretted or wondered what if. By no means at all has it been easy. Just because you get back together doesn't mean that all your problems magically get solved...i wish they could! You just have to take it one day at a time...one issue at a time and you just try and work through it. There is still a long ways for us to go but we are getting there and i'm happy with the prospect of my future with my family.

My kids are growing more and more each day. Aiden is one of the most hyper energtic person i think out there....i have no idea how one person could have so much energy ALL day long. We are getting excited about the idea of preschool to keep him busy cause if he's not busy...he's making himself busy getting into as much trouble as he can possibly find. We are STILL working on potty training with him..we are making progress but still not all the way there...i just keep telling myself one of these days it will happen....BUT WHEN???? Makayla is becoming am absolute gorgeous little girl...she is very much a girly girl and very much a daddy's girl! Her personality is coming out more and more everyday funniest to see is her facial expressions and her dancing skills!! She loves to hold grandpa's cell phone which has an mp3 player on it watch the screen of the bars going up and down and dancing to the music!! I love being a mom it's so rewarding ...even after the days where i feel like i'm about to pull my hair out!

Life is starting to come together! and hopefully the starting of a happy successful future!!!

Until next time!