My Update

So i haven't gone on my blog for a couple of months now so i thought i should come on and update everyone on everything not that everyone doesn't already know but...in case anyone doesn't

So I met with Aaron on February 2ND to discuss a parenting plan that we could both agree with, pertaining to me and the kids moving to Utah. We went out to dinner and talked about how we were going to make it work, that night i got home and wrote him and email and just told him that i didn't think it was a good idea for me to hang out with him again because it made feelings come back and i didn't want to allow those feelings to come back again. He in return wrote me and told me that he wanted to get together and talk because he had feelings for me to. So i went over to his apartment the next day and he told me that he was still in love with me and wanted to try and work things out and be married again. We didn't know if things would work out but he wanted to try. I wanted to more than anything else in this world but i wasn't sure if it was the right thing to do or not, If i was just setting myself up for a second time. So i told him i wanted to try but i wasn't sure and that i needed to think about it. The big things were that i didn't trust him and that he said he still had feelings for Erin. We spent the next 2 weeks together while i tried to make my decision. After many arguments and many discussions and a lot of praying and thinking i decided that i was going to try and fix things and stay in Washington.

It has not been easy their have been far to many bumps in the road but it's getting better and better. i do not regret my decision to stay with him. Erin is FINALLY out of the picture it took lots of arguments with her and tons of drama but she is gone and their is no feelings on Aaron's half towards her.

I am so grateful for everyone and their help through out my whole ordeal. It was hardest on me and the kids but it was hard for all of my family and friends as well. Unfortunately i have lost a fair amount of my friends due to my reconciliation which breaks my heart but i know in my heart that i made the right decision. I know that people are angry and some even hate Aaron and i do not blame anyone for having these feelings but I believe in my heart that Aaron has truly changed for the better and is the person who i want to spend the rest of my life with. I pray with all my heart that things someday will be mended between Aaron and my family and friends... i hate the thought that they may never be.

He has been treating me and the kids incredibly well...things are not perfect but no relationship is but he finally respects me sexually and no longer is mentally abusive. He has been helping me with the kids and has created a great bond with them. It has taken Aiden time to be OK with everything but that's to be expected he was hurt by Aaron just as much as i was. He's really becoming a man hes motivated to better himself and our family. He's waiting for his books to come so that he can study to get his A+ Certificate from Microsoft and some other certificates that they have and is hoping to take the test for them within the next 3 months and is hoping to get a state job working on computers which would be something he would LOVE to do.

I'm not perfect nor is Aaron but we are trying our best...things are going to take time to be "OK" or back to normal but we are working towards that.